Dallas Baptist University

Im glad the school is better now but in 2011-2015 my perception of love diminished so much my serotonin brain levels(your sleep and love chemical in brain) are 60 which is none existent. I felt isolated, rejected, and at the end had no friends for all my work. Love and community are all superficial even in the church and self professing Christians. The love of most has gone cold.

I have been from dead end job to dead end job not becuase of the school, but because of how the school system ran socially. To feel reciprocation emotionally from other students is all I wanted. I wanted to be loved and they labeled me as greedy, money hungry and a class with all the students leaders looked at me with disdain and sat with each other and not me and did not say a word to me and derided me when I said anything about a topic.

I feel like God abandoned me and I feel all this immense pain and lack of love.
Fortunately I got with a good woman, but I went to my home country of India to find a wife.
America is not what it used to be, and people are lonely their and the trend is many American men are finding wives from other countries due to the pickiness of western girls.

I am still struggling today, Fortunately I feel happy and I have changed my life and my depression. I did all the work and no help from God for 4 years to turn my life around. I have no money but I feel love and healing after many years of depression, loneliness. I wish my college experience would have been the experience I never had in highschool.

Unfortunately I was at the right place at the wrong time.
Im sad.